November 16, 2017: Darkness

“The reason most of us are unhappy most of the time is that we set our goals – not for the person we’re going to be when we reach them – we set our goal for the person we are when we set them.”

Day 2,

Much pain in my silence, even more disturbance in my darkness. Perhaps solitude will bring some clarity, perhaps only distraction. 

Tonight I find the person I'm going to be so I can set some goals. May it bring tomorrow direction, force, momentum. 

Romance, relationships, men. I used them as a distraction form my own thoughts, from my own darkness and insanity. 

Will shower and think about what I want and where to begin with goals. Please, me, get us out of this darkness.