December 31, 2017

We have separated, though he sleeps awaiting a response from me. 

His offer was freedom with a limitation at romance, which I refused. I told him yesterday that I didn't need romance with anyone else and you should have seen how happy it made it. He told me he wasn't fragile. 

You should have seen how happy it made him and how hopeful he was. I feel sick. 

I feel sick because I did some chakra alignment meditation today and opened up my heart chakra. My heart wide open and I remember all the beautiful memories. All I ever wanted was to find that one person, that person who you never let go of. The person that stands the through wind and rain. A life partner who holds you through the nights and makes you feel like you're not alone in this world. The feeling of home. The feeling that everything is okay, and you can relax and be you. Because you know that no matter what happens, he will always stand beside you. Have I found him?