December 4, 2017: Money & A Walk To Remember

I sold my labor for 15 dollars an hour, worked the whole day, and made about 100 dollars. Even though I know I'm worth much more, it made me feel good.

After confirming his feelings for me, I've been feelings strange and uneasy. On one hand, I do feel at ease with him, and find him to be an excellent distraction from the other parts of my life. On the other, I'm so terribly terrified that I might one day fall for someone like that. Reliance. Dependence. Oh God, please no. 

Update 12/5: I like him a lot. So much so that I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about our walk. About me jumping into his arms. It felt so nice.